Why??

How does it feel when your ex boyfriend broke up with you saying his family do not approve of this relationship and it is not his choice to do so while not long after the big break he go after a close friend of mine?? I do not know what to think of him anymore. When he asked for the break, I reluctantly agree however I do beg for him not to go after my friend, stating that he had made me lose something important in my life so please do not make me have to lose a friendship  as well. The reply he gave was not favourable. He told me that he could not promise me so as this is his life and it is up to him to do what he want. 

In that moment only I realise that it is his choice to break up with me. Am I that naive to fall for the shit he told me?? Unfortunately that is the truth. 

A direction

When you reach a crossroad, which way would you take?? Would you take the road you are most familiar with or would you rather follow others and travel together with them or the small bumpy road that triggering my curiosity? With only fuel enough for one journey, I could make no mistake. How I wish there will be a person to walk beside me and guide me through the journey. Sadly such people do not exist. I have stop to ponder about this for long enough. It's time to move along, no point causing a road jam to people behind me. However I still do not know which road to take, should I just follow any path that open up first or should I wait for the one I want to open up? Only time could tell whether the way I chose are right or wrong.

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useless

the feeling you have when you are the one that holding your whole family down is very depressing. how i wish i could live like a normal person, being independent and end my parents' worry. i wish for it every single day. i tried to stand up on my own feet, i just can't stand up long. i know that i failed horribly.

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